Saturday, July 08, 2006
I might having a throat cancer... why because cannot be I haven recover for ages... its been one whole damn week u noe... and I never ever touch anythings that is oily... I've been having torture of eating plain rice with soup only... see hw pathetic I am... this is just wat I had for my dinner... My throat feels hurt and stomach hurts when I cough very hard... Sometimes my family members only my mum cares for me... the rest not even bother... only noe hw to disturb me and makes things difficult for me... sometimes I feel so pathetic... I feel so lonely... Only my mum really cares for me.. she bother to come to my room and touched my forehead and helped me put on the colonge ard my neck... And when I in foul mood, I dun expect anyone to disturb me or else sure kena scolding from me... and I will cry when I am really very angry... no one cares for me except only my beloved mum... I love her so much... I promise to myself that I must work harder and gave her all the comfort so that she no nid to suffer in wrking two jobs... If not for my studies, I won't be spending most of her money till very less... I know I muz return to her cuz its just a loan from her... Sometimes I hate ppl to disturb me when I can have a good rest at home whole day.. today received a couple of calls... when I was slping! The feeling was really ARRGGGHHHH!!!! But its my mum and auntie so I can't blame lah... I can only blame for myself so unlucky loh...wan to rest also kena disturb... I really hope I can get well... I really avoid the yummy food in front of me for so long and I had lost 2KG u noe... Its really hard to control ur diet but I must get well so I must control! Just nw my families had durians for dinner and still seducing me... but I nv eat it cuz I know if I eat it, I might nid to suffer for another one whole damn week again which is really terrible... I had nv complain so many things abt my cough in my blog b4... I dunno why... This time when I fall sick, its really a BIG one... and its really cause me to lose appetite and increase my anger... I felt so frustrated everytime I cough and cough non-stop and ppl ard u din even understand hw u felt... still making fun of u, cough for fun or kip saying why always cough and cough... this kind of ppl really very bad! They should get their revenge... they should get the same feeling of me... Wait till they coughs, they will realised tat time they laff is wrong and I will make they pay for it... they will regret for it! I bet!
Am different; Neglection
